I’m inspired

I have this friend – let’s call her Deeno to protect the innocent (or guilty?) . Anyway, she inspires me. She’s recently started blogging and I’m beginning to not-so-secretly need to read her latest writings. I half-ass started my own blog in August. Long enough ago and with little-enough attention that I couldn’t even remember the password to the silly thing to get in here to write THIS blog. Just reading Deeno’s blog for the last few days I’m inspired to get over myself and any stupid, lamoid excuse for not blogging and add some of my own thoughts, words, and wisdom for the world to see. Ok, not the world, the few friends who may actually stop in to read it.

Each year seems to have a general theme – at least the last several have had a general theme:

2001 – The big change (the year I lost my job and realized as a population the US identifies its people by what we do that we don’t know who we are if we don’t “do” anything.

2002 – Admitting what I am (A woman proud of plans to be a stay-at-home mom and not really seeing it as throwing away a college education to not have a 9-5er and commit to raising my own children.

2003 – What was I thinking? (The year my little princess was born… then I decided when she was 6 months old to do childcare for 2 and 4-year-old sisters on a part-time-turned year-long commitment… and all the time having NO IDEA what life as a stay-at-home mom in charge 3 under 3 much less an infant would entail.

2004 – I’m crazy (The year I got pregnant with and then had my superhero – my youngest and last. My two would only be 22 months apart – and the pregnancy with superhero was intense and problematic enough that I decided to medically prevent any future spawning aside from an incredibly UNFUNNY act of whatever force controls the universe.

2005 – Giving up Control (As if having 2 children 22 months apart wasn’t stressful enough, this little family of mine went through such challenges that year I wasn’t sure I could emotionally take much more. All that was the year 2005 is at least 4 blogs worth of material. I won’t go into it here. Let’s just say, when I finally gave control over to whatever that higher power is, life seemed to get a little more manageable for me.

2006 – The Journey to Self Discovery. (I supposed all of life is a journey to self discovery. But for me 2006 was a year of finally allowing me to be me. It was a year of truly letting go of the past pains and heartaches and recognizing that there was so much more to life than getting, being, or staying bitter or angry or sad was worth.

And now we’ve begun 2007 – and for the time being I’ll label it the year of Letting it Happen. I’m going with the flow. Taking it as it comes – in as much stride as I can. My new mantra is “Everything is perfect exactly the way that it is.” I’d like to take credit for that one, but I’ll send a shout out to Marie, the fabulous energy intuitive from the west coast. She shared those words with me in September 2006 and they are finding a strange yet comfortable place in my heart and life. Here’s what those words mean to me: God gives me everything I need each day. What I want and what I need may differ – but rest assure, I will always have all that I need.

Thanks, Deeno. For the inspiration, for your friendship, for your wisdom, and for just being.